World Magazine
Dec 22 2004

Wanting both
Looking for love in the right places |
by Marvin Olasky

Since both my wife and I formally became Christians (through baptism)
in the same year we were married, 1976, our love for each other in
some loopy way is tied up with our love for Christ’s church. Our
Christian beliefs, growing even before we were fully aware of them,
pushed us to marriage, and marriage pushed us to church membership.

Wonderfully, we’ve never had any significant frustrations in our
marriage; providentially but not so happily, we’ve had some in church
relationships. Yet Christianity is true and churches are God’s major
vehicles for growing believers, so despite all that goes wrong in them,
they’re still the only true game in town.

My favorite 20th-century writer of fiction, Walker Percy, poured
on the criticism in his next-to-last novel, The Second Coming
(1980). He complained that the contemporary Christian is “nominal,
lukewarm, hypocritical, sinful, or, if fervent, generally offensive
and fanatical. But he is not crazy.” The unbeliever is, because of
the “fatuity, blandness, incoherence, fakery, and fatheadedness of
his unbelief. He is in fact an insane person.”

Percy continued, “The present-day unbeliever is crazy because he finds
himself born into a world of endless wonders, having no notion how he
got here, a world in which he eats, sleeps . . . works, grows old,
gets sick, and dies . . . takes his comfort and ease, plays along
with the game, watches TV, drinks his drink, laughs . . . for all the
world as if his prostate were not growing cancerous, his arteries
turning to chalk, his brain cells dying off by the millions, as if
the worms were not going to have him in no time at all.”

Percy describes the typical academic: “The more intelligent he is, the
crazier he is. . . . He reads Dante for its mythic structure. He joins
the A.C.L.U. and concerns himself with the freedom of the individual
and does not once exercise his own freedom to inquire into how in
God’s name he should find himself in such a ludicrous situation.”

The international news of 2004 once again showed how far from sanity
this world resides. Iraq. Sudan. Israel. Afghanistan. Holland. China.
Chechnya. Cuba. Nagorno Karabakh. On the surface, our domestic
news is better. No terrorist attacks. No mass murders in schools
or churches. But Percy’s quiet terror continues: arteries to chalk,
brain cells to mush, dust to dust.

This was a year in which many people sought the love of another. I
feel extraordinarily blessed to love Susan and be loved by her, but
millions have bad marriages or no marriages, and I see how lonely many
are, unless they are called to singleness. Hit television shows like
Sex and the City and Desperate Housewives, as well as Tom Wolfe’s
fine novel I Am Charlotte Simmons, display the desperate desire for
love that some sadly reduce to a desperate search for sex – as if
momentary excitement can substitute for years of contentment.

Some of the gays and lesbians who lined up for “marriage licenses” in
San Francisco early this year merely wanted to poke their fingers in
the eyes of straights they hate, but others were there because they
thought they suddenly had an antidote to loneliness. They deserve
not our hatred but our pity.

What’s more striking is how the desperate search for horizontal love,
person to person, is not matched by what should be an even more
desperate search for vertical love, person and God. Here’s Walker
Percy again: “I am surrounded by two classes of maniacs. The first are
the believers, who think they know the reason why we find ourselves
in this ludicrous predicament yet act for all the world as if they
don’t. The second are the unbelievers, who don’t know the reason and
don’t care if they don’t.”

Confession: I often act for all the world as if I’m clueless. So do
most Christians I know – and those who don’t act clueless often act
as if they know everything, which is even more obnoxious. But here’s
my continuing New Year’s resolution, now 24 years old, taken from the
end of The Second Coming, after protagonist Will Barrett has fallen
in love and also come to understand a little about God: “Am I crazy
to want both, her and Him? No, not want, must have. And will have.”